The "Click Click Click" Of My High Heels

Today I had lunch with a friend of mine from work.  We were on our way back to our respective offices from the cafeteria.  We were walking down a long hall where all you could hear was the “click click click” of my high heeled shoes.  She looked down at my feet and said “I just don’t know how you walk in those high heels”.  I simply smiled at her and we kept walking. 

 

When I was reflecting on her statement, it came to mind that I walk briskly with ease in my heels.  Aside from the occasional slippery floor where I catch myself so as not to fall flat on my bottom!  But isn’t that true in life too? 

 

I know with Bipolar Disorder, for me, I am proud of myself for the day to day activities that I do.  I get up (sometimes I reset my alarm five times first but I get up), I get showered and dressed and I drive myself to work.  I work a full day, take care of my family at night, workout then take care of myself and go to bed.

 

Some days are easier than others.  Some days re-setting my alarm isn’t all that is keeping me in bed.  Sometimes I get depressed and I cannot get out of bed at all.  Other days I make my way to work only to hypothetically “slip and fall”.  For example Monday, I sent a report out to the entire leadership team (c-suite included… CEO, CFO, COO, CNO, CMO and so on…) and their executive assistants.  I sent it out only to find that not two minutes post-“sent” did my co-worker (who has the office next to me) come in to say that my math did not add up correctly at the top of the spreadsheet.  Let me repeat myself.  C-suite.  And third grade math.  It was an overlook on my part of course and we all make mistakes, no?  But this was a big huge error for sure.    

 

Other days I wear my high heels and walk through the halls with glamour.  As I did a few weeks ago when I received recognition from my boss for two financial projections I had successfully completed for him.  The "Congratulations and great job, Stacy" went out to the whole company for everyone to see and I was very excited with this accomplishment. 

So for me in my life, my high heels are more than just the clicking down the hallway.  They represent strength, beauty and perseverance.  It is not only about how pretty they make my outfit look on the outside but how special they make me feel on the inside. 

 

Love Note:  With all my heart, I genuinely request that due to the content written, please seek the guidance of professional help should you feel you need it.