Releasing Fear To Be Surrounded By Love

This post is a tribute to my dear friend from California who passed away suddenly.  His life and legacy lives on forever in the hearts of so many people.  


When I was 7 years old, my father was diagnosed with prostate cancer.  Initially, they gave him 6 months to live.  Yet, he battled cancer for 15 years as he went in and out of remission.  While he was fighting for his life, he told his story.  He always shared with his colleagues, his customers, his friends and his family the status of his health.  My father earned the love and support of his community through his desire to share his story.  

As his daughter, I was the opposite.  I spent my life hiding behind my fear of sharing my mental illness with anyone.  I told very few people and my story was under lock and key within the confines of my heart.  

Slowly, starting around 30 years old, I began to tell my story.  And I started to share with others what I was going through with my mental health.  I realized something very important.  I decided that I needed to share my story not only for myself but for my husband and daughter as well.  I was not the only person who needed support as I battled this illness, and I wanted to tell others what I was going through so that my whole family could have people surrounding us in love.  

I have spent my life scared.  I was scared that there would be a stigma when I told people about my mental illness.  I was afraid that no one would understand what I was going through.  And I was terrified if they found out, I would have to justify myself and my illness to others.  I let my fear tell me to hide behind closed doors.  

One of my best friends recently gave me Third Eye Chakra Affirmation cards.  And when I read one of the cards, I knew that I had to be true to myself and keep sharing my story.  I had to go beyond the confines of my fears and I needed to blog and share my posts with others.  And today, I end my post with the beauty of the reading in this card:

I see who I am.

I open myself to inner guidance & wisdom. 

Every situation is an opportunity for growth. 

I trust that my highest good is unfolding. 

I am intuitive & aligned.

I am a divine being. 

Everything I need is within me. 

I am aligned with the universe.  

I see clearly & am open to all possibilities.  

I am the source of my truth.  

My vision is clear.  

Love Note: With all my heart, I genuinely request that due to the content written, please seek the guidance of professional help should you feel you need it.