Gratefully Annoyed

Amongst my many ailments, I suffer from migraines.  These headaches are beyond awful.  They can be debilitating and extremely painful.  

The pain begins in my lower forehead and creeps behind my eyes.  It then moves up the front of my face, on top of my head, down the back of my head and into my lower neck and shoulders.  It hurts.  

Migraines are not like normal every day headaches.  They come equip with light and sound sensitivity.  And all I ever want is pain relief, a dark room, my body to be warm and my head to be freezing cold.  

I am grateful because we are blessed to have health insurance.  Yet, the insurance company is quick to review my need for migraine medication and slow to approve it.  This last go-around with the insurance company meant that my monthly migraine medicine was a week overdue, and I had a migraine for two days waiting for the prior authorization to be approved in order to get the medicine to ease the pain.  

I am grateful that I have the time right now to make multiple phone calls to the doctors offices, insurance company, and pharmacy.  While not working is financially straining, it certainly gives me extra time to be an advocate for my health.  And it allows me the flexibility to drive an hour away to pick up my medications.  

I am grateful for the pharmacy who processed my medicine.  The customer service person was extremely rude but yet finally offered me an alternative solution to picking up my medicine rather than mailing it.  Mail order would take upwards of 7 days to process and ship it, which was not a feasible option given the circumstances.  

Therefore, I digress because I feel gratefully annoyed.  Annoyed that I had to go through this entire mess of a process to get my prescription in order to have pain relief.  Yet grateful that I have insurance and support from my doctors office to help me process the prior authorization for the medication that I need.  

When I put on my heels, I think about how blessed I am to be supported by wonderful doctors, have access to helpful medicine and have family and friends who loves me through all the trying times.  I was beyond annoyed that I had to go through this process in order to get the help I needed yet, at the end of two long weeks, I am grateful for the help I finally received. 

Love Note: With all my heart, I genuinely request that due to the content written, please seek the guidance of professional help should you feel you need it.